Ellie ❤

My sweet girl is finally here! I’ll type out her birth story later- it was not without drama- but for now, here’s my newest little love.

Born 2.5.17 (39 weeks 4 days) at 2:32pm

6 pounds 4 ounces, 20 inches long


37 week update 

I am now at the point of weekly OB appointments… I opted to wait until next week to start cervical checks to determine if I’m dilated/effaced at all. For the first time, I actually measured a week ahead (38 weeks) despite being a week behind consistently throughout the pregnancy- so baby girl must have had a growth spurt! 

I am still so nervous about things going wrong, but trying to push those thoughts out of my head. I am SO ready for her to be here- time is moving sooo slowly now!

Physically, I feel pretty good other than some shortness of breath occasionally and having to pee constantly! I hate to complain because overall, I’ve had a good pregnancy… but emotionally, it’s been tough. I don’t know if it’s from dealing with infertility, or if this is how I would’ve been regardless, but it makes me question if I’d be able to do it again… for now, though, I am focusing on our one healthy little girl, and can’t wait to snuggle her!

32 weeks!

Cruising along… again not much to update on (thankfully!). My OB sent me for another ultrasound, “just because”- she knows my anxiety levels are high! It was fun to see the little babe again- now 8ish weeks until we see her in person… I cannot wait! 

I still have a fear of something happening before delivery, or during delivery, but I’m trying to convince myself that those cases are rare. I’ll just feel so much better once she’s here! 


Last year on this day, I was recovering from surgery for endometriosis and was so thankful that both ovaries were able to be salvaged.

This year, I am so incredibly beyond thankful for the little one growing, kicking, and punching inside of me. 10ish weeks until we finally get to meet her. ❤️

26 week update!

Time seems to be moving fast yet dragging on all at the same time. My anxiety is definitely raging… I thought once we got pregnant, it would decrease, but then my worry shifted to miscarriage… I thought it would go down again once we reached viability, but now I  panic about stillbirth, and I’m sure once she’s here, I’ll be terrified of SIDS! That being said, I am incredibly grateful for where I’m at, and trying to celebrate each milestone.

I now feel her kick all the time, which is amazing! My husband and I started playing a game where we will put random objects on my belly and see if she can kick hard enough to knock them off haha! 

No weird cravings or symptoms, just waking up at least once or twice a night to pee… my mom says it’s nature’s way of getting me used to waking up throughout the night. 

I’m looking forward to my baby shower in early December (before Christmas gets too close!)… I think time will go quickly once we get to that point. We have also started to work on the nursery which is fun and stressful at the same time!

Overall, enjoying pregnancy, but can’t wait to meet her in a few months 😊

Bump has just started actually looking like a bump (ignore the fact that it’s a selfie in the bathroom- which is messy!):

A little math for today.

I was bored at work today, so I spent my day figuring out how much I have done to my body (and the cost!) over the course of the last year and a half when we started fertility treatments. I’m not counting clomid or femara because those now seem so benign!

Number of months with a negative pregnancy test: 26

Timed intercourse: 1

IUI: 3

IVF: 1 fresh (24 eggs retrieved, only 3 embryos survived to blastocysts, transferred one), 1 frozen (transferred 2)

IM injections (in the butt): 83

SubQ injections (in the stomach): 67

Suppositories: approximately 140

Surgery: 2 (one D&C with hysteroscopy and polypectomy & one diagnostic laparoscopy- diagnosed with endometriosis)

Cost: approximately $8500 (this is where I know I am extremely fortunate… over the last 18 months, this is all we have paid for one timed intercourse, 3 IUIs, two outpatient surgeries, one fresh IVF, one FET).

I should also include friendships lost… but that is another post for another day. I had a major falling-out with a friend of 27 years (!!!) – I’ll write about that another time.


It’s a…


Just got our Harmony blood test results… Low risk for Trisomy 13, 18, and 21, and as a bonus found out we are expecting a little lady! 

I am so excited. Husband isn’t quite there yet, haha- he was convinced it was a boy, so I think the shock still needs to fade. I told him he’s so lucky because he will have a little Daddy’s girl.

Now to start buying EVERYTHING pink haha!

Little Bean

Yesterday I had my 12 week ultrasound. Everything looked great, and I have finally been able to feel like this is actually happening! My OB said the miscarriage rate is now less than 1%, and it never gets any lower than that!
We decided to do the Harmony blood test, which will check for any chromosomal abnormalities, and as a bonus, the gender! So we should know by next Monday what we are having. I originally did not want to find out the gender this way- I like the idea of having the ultrasound to find out- but we are going to visit my in-laws that week, and my husband wants to tell them in person. So, I’ll allow it!

We have been missing our pup a lot this week… We know that he would’ve been a great big brother! I always pictured bringing our baby home from the hospital to him- it makes us so sad that he he’s not here for this. Obviously we are super excited for the baby, but it just feels like there’s a piece missing.

Here’s our baby- moving all around! Get a nice glimpse of his/her foot at the end!

Oh, the anxiety!!

I have my 12 week scan this Friday, and I’m perhaps even more nervous for this one than the others! I keep reading horror stories of people who went in with no idea anything was wrong, only to find out the baby had stopped growing. I know I need to stay away from the Internet stories, but I can’t help it!

Hoping that our scan is good, and that perhaps my anxiety can come down a notch (I know it probably won’t ever go away completely, but this is bad!).